Thursday, 29 August 2013

My last post before the weekend

This will be my last post until Monday. I'm away for the weekend at Bingley Music Live so I'm sure my next blog will be about the weekend of camping and music. I'm so excited because I get to spend the whole weekend with a bunch of my friends before uni. I really can't wait.

I've spent all day packing and loading up the car. I have to admit the day didn't start off 'peachy'. I got out of the shower and I was skipping around my room and a safety pin went in my foot. OMG I cannot explain the pain my foot is in right now...and I have to walk around all weekend (or in my case hobble). However, I am determined to persevere with it!

ROAD TRIP! Something I'm looking forward to in the morning has to be the journey to Bingley! The car is packed and I can't wait to put my iPod on and sing along in the car with everyone (hoping they wanna have a sing song)!

Playlist for the car! TWO DOOR CINEMA CLUB, SWIM DEEP, FOSTER THE PEOPLE, NINA NESBITT, KING CHARLES, LITTLE COMETS...ugh so many to put on a playlist!

My head's all over the place at the minute sorting stuff out for uni and making sure I have everything! It's so stressful! I hope you're all well and that your plans are ok! University is getting close now...OOH that means that Swim Deep is just around the corner!!

Sorry to cut this short today I promise my next blog will be longer!

"The rest is still unwritten"


Wednesday, 28 August 2013

My Journey To University: Volume 1

Inspired by abzfabz

My journey to uni hasn't been smooth running as in some cases. I didn't get all 5 offers. I only got 1 offer for the course of my choice to a uni I didn't really want to go to, and another offer for a course I didn't want to do but to a uni I really liked. Like many a level students I found sixth form hard. I mean I chose all the tough academic subjects. English Language which seemed a lot harder than I originally thought it would be, History which was actually not as enjoyable as I first though and Geography which was...well self explanatory. Anyhoo, AS year wasn't a great one for me in terms of exam results. I went from being an A student to E's. My actual AS results were CDEE (I had taken Psychology in AS year and hated it so that was an easy decision to make-DROP IT). I went through a really rough patch at sixth form after that. I cried during most lessons, didn't work as hard as I could and emotionally I just seemed defeated. However, I was lucky enough to have an amazing head of year (Mrs Daniels), who was more than happy to give me a pep talk and the advice I needed! This is where I met Penni and Shara Leigh, these 3 people (Shara Leigh, Penni and Mrs Daniels) who I thank for my overall a level results as without their support I don't think I would've done as well as I could've done.

Penni became a second mother and soon I was always popping in for chats about stuff that was going on in my life. May sound sad but those chats really helped give me the boost I needed on tough days. I don't think there will ever be enough words to say how thankful I am to them for not giving up on me. They knew I could do it and they were so happy for me that I eventually got what I wanted.

When I saw my A level results I remembered the first time I met Penni. I walked in booing my eyes out with Mrs Daniels' arm wrapped tightly around me. I think I stayed in Penni's office for 2 hours and I never stopped crying. After that I was slowly putting myself together and slowly but surely I began to work harder. I re-sat my exams...ALL OF THEM in January. Although, I didn't get the results I wanted again. Nevertheless I didn't give up! I got an E again in History in January and my teacher told me we would struggle to get a B overall. However on 15th August 2013 I found out that I finally got an A in that exam. I guess the saying 'Third time lucky' is right eh? I got BCD overall in my A levels and I couldn't be happier. I went through clearing ringing up the uni of my choice and securing an interview and on the day of interview I was offered a place at Leeds Trinity University to study Primary Education: Early Years. That was quite possibly one of the happiest moments of my life!

So as you can see not all journeys to university are smooth! Just remember that you should never give in because eventually you'll get what you want! Resilience and perseverance will serve you well with your step up to uni!

So finally, congratulations to everyone on their A level, AS level and GCSE results. I'm sure you all have bright futures ahead. Never give up on your dreams because if you want something bad enough you'll soon find a way to get there, it may not just be there road you envisioned taking!

Goodbye and remember;

"The rest is still unwritten"


Tuesday, 27 August 2013

Let the feels out

*Brace yourselves this is a long one!*

Now everyone always talks about relationships, including friendships, but over the past two years I think I’ve had pretty rubbish times involving friends and guys. Now because I’m so nice they will all remain nameless but I guess if they read this they’ll know who they are.

If my friends read this they may think me stupid for writing something about love and relationships because they have only seen me with one guy. There are many things I choose not to tell my friends. This is because of a number of reasons. Mainly I’m ashamed of the choices I made in the past. However, I believe that they have made me the person I am today. I’m stronger for the pain and emotional torment they put me through. I’m also a better judge of character. I’ve learnt to keep a few friends close and more importantly I’ve learnt to forgive those who deserve a second, third or even tenth chance! I’m known as a soft person who fails dismally to stick up for herself but I feel this is because i have a pretty poor view of myself.

*Taylor Swift- Forever and Always just happens to play on my iPod...thanks shuffle how did you know?!*

My final year of high school was probably my toughest in terms of emotions. I fell out with a lot of my friends and consequently I was pushed to look elsewhere for new friends. After my brother and I grew closer together I made his games console my new favourite thing. I would play black ops everyday and it became an addiction. Soon I was playing alone and met a lot of people online some I am still really close to even to this day. I have to say at a low point in my life I was able to talk to those people who were interested in me and didn’t judge me on looks. Now you’re all probably thinking that I was desperate, yes there were some creeps on there but in all honestly it’s easy to find people who are actually really cool and down to earth on there. My friend Chloe is probably one of my best friends I made on there. I could literally trust her with all my problems! I have to thank her for sticking around in that lobby the first day we met. Guys were following me around the map and getting me killed and doing inappropriate stuff to my online character so I told them to go and follow the other girl in the lobby instead. Next thing I hear “oh yeah thanks meg for that”. We stayed together the rest of the night and two years on we’re still just as close and i can honestly say there has never been one conversation where she hasn’t made me laugh till I’m in tears.

I have to admit I became attached to a lot of my guy friends on there and in some cases wished we could’ve been more than friends because they were so lovely when I had known them for two years. I mean it doesn’t seem like a long time but in emotional teen years it feels like I’ve known them all my life. I trusted Chloe with everything. She was there to cheer me up when things at school and then sixth form weren’t going to plan and I think I can safely say that she helped me a lot in terms of self confidence and viewing each day with a positive attitude. She is someone who has inspired me because in all honesty I admire her for everything she has done so far in her life! Although I don’t play Xbox anymore the few and close relationships I made with friends online I transferred to twitter etc and the ones who made the effort stuck around in my life.

My recent relationship held a lot of memories I wish I could relive. I think it’s the thing that made me realise that I hate being on my own. However, it took my friends to intervene and tell me that I deserved better! Although, I miss the thought that I had someone in my life that cared and loved me like he did (or used to) I know that I was deliberately avoiding breaking up with him through fear of being alone and never finding anyone again. To this day I cry myself to sleep most nights because I’m still confused as to how it ended and why I let myself be dumped by him twice. Going out in town was something I used to enjoy and now every time I’ve gone out I’ve cried! I mean I have been so emotional! It’s not just because of the guy, it’s everything just building up and the realisation that soon my life will be so different. I’m excited to start a fresh and I think there’s a part of me somewhere that views blogging as something to take my mind off the hurt I still feel from my previous relationship. I’m lucky enough to have amazing friends in my life that are there to support me and give me the best pep talks I could ask for.

Friends, I’ve had pretty tough times with them as well. However, I am lucky to have formed close bonds with a few who I feel are worth my time and energy! They care about me and they know me so well. To name a few; Rais, he is probably the best guy friend I could ever ask for. He always supports me and looks out for me; also he has recently become my new gig buddy introducing me to some amazing bands. Abz, my twin who understands my obsessions for Disney and YouTube! I literally couldn’t imagine my life without ‘Abzigail’ because she will always stick up for me, support me and give me the much needed pep talks on a daily basis! Hannah, who was my childhood best friend, has also still been a really good friend to me even though she lives in Essex! I can’t thank her enough for listening to my rants on the phone and consoling me when I regularly got upset. I am so thankful that she is moving up north so I can finally see her more often!

This blog goes out to you guys, my family, friends and all of you reading this. Thanks for being a part of some of my 18 years on this earth and to my close friends and family thank you for carrying me through these tough 3 years. I couldn’t have done it without your support. It really means so much to know that you’re all there for me.

And to all the guys that have broken my heart, hurt me or even just didn’t give me a chance. I know I’m worth ten times more than the rubbish you put me through. One day I’ll find the right guy who accepts me flaws and all!

So that’s the end of this blog. Thanks for reading.

“The rest is still unwritten”


Monday, 26 August 2013

The Start Of Something New

Firstly, no High School Musical reference in the title was intended it just kind of...happened.

Well first thing's first HELLO! I'm Megan and blogging is something I have wanted to do for a long time. I guess today (Monday 26th August 2013) was finally the day I decided to make it happen. Now I've been obsessed with YouTube recently and I have seen how most of them started out blogging so I thought why not give it a try? So here go's...MY FIRST BLOG.


Unlike most people I love Monday's. Whatever bad things happened the previous week I tend to forget about and start again. Monday signals a fresh start. In this first blog I thought I'd give a brief explanation to how I got here and why I want to do this. It'll give you guys out there (whoever you are) a better understanding of the weird and wonderful mess that makes me!
 Now my best friend Abz can be blamed for my unhealthy obsession to YouTube. She is my twin and probably one of the few people that understands me and accepts me for who I am. Now when she told me about YouTube I didn't really get into it until I first started watching Tyler Oakley. Now as soon as I started watching Tyler's videos I became instantly hooked. His videos made me laugh till I cried and in some ways that's how I wanted to be viewed. I wanted to be known for making people happy something which at the minute I feel I am struggling with. We'll leave all the 'emosh' stuff for the next blog!

As well as blogging YouTube would also be something I would love to be able to be involved in. I guess I see myself as someone who enjoys talking to people through the internet! Now my 'channel' won't really see any action (best phrase I could think of) till I move to my new flat (sometime in September) ready for me to begin Uni. At the minute I can't really say how regular these videos will be because these videos would be fitted around Uni and work! I have to be honest and say I have ideas already of what I want to develop my channel as! Vlogging, challenges and maybe advice? University is something we're all most likely to experience and I feel like I could connect with some of you who may be worried about Uni, wanting to know what Uni life is like, or maybe you just want an idiot to laugh at on YouTube! Regardless, feel free to view my videos and tell me what you think.

Now I don't want this blog to be so big but I am so excited for the future. I have so many things to share with you on this blog and I just hope that some of you find it interesting! I will try and blog everyday if I get chance! I can't really say what genre this blog would be in! It's just a general blog. If you want to read reviews of the gigs I've attended, read about the events of my life or just read about what University is like then I guess my blog might interest you!

Thank You for taking the time to read this and I hope you'll stick around to stay on this journey with me! As Natasha Bedingfield would sing:

"The rest is still unwritten"


P.S. Let's be cute and dedicate my blog to Abz. You inspired me to do this and gave me the confidence to pursue this. Thank you.